Knowing Who You Are

We were all created for greatness; each of us having a kernel, a nugget inside that brings a piece of the puzzle together in this crazy mixed-up world. The problem is from the minute we’re born, life begins kicking the sh*t out of us and that ‘thing’ that is so good can get lost in the shuffle. Most of us fail to circle back and rediscover our greatness. Usually we get caught up in the status quo or the drama of our lives –  always knowing deep inside that something is missing but not fully understanding what that something is and having no idea of how to go about getting it.

For me, the journey of rediscovery started about 10 years ago when I came to the realization that my pain was preventing me from living the life I wanted to live. I didn’t understand this at the time, but it was preventing me from being the person I was created to be.

The process began slowly, but methodically, piece by piece I began to uncover Sara again and discover new and exciting things about her that I never knew existed. That discovery continues to happen today.

Everybody has stuff to work through, to deal with.  And if you think you don’t, then your ‘stuff’ is that you’re a liar. The only difference between me and (most of) the rest of the world is that I’m not afraid to talk about it. Well, I am actually but for whatever reason, I have never been afraid of being afraid.

Because here’s the deal...
The world will try to tell you who you are. The people around you will try and tell you who you should be. A lot of the time, most of the time really, I’ve found people need you to be a certain way so that they can feel better about them. The noise can be deafening, especially if those people are people you love. But who you are – the real you- can only be decided between you and your maker.

In a few days I will be celebrating the 45th anniversary of my birth.

This is cause for reflection of course – on the past 45 years and what I’d like the next 45 to entail. When I look back and reflect on the past, mostly I am filled with gratitude; grateful for where I’ve been and how far I’ve come in so many areas of my life. Grateful that each instance of joy and hurt; success and failure has helped to mold me into the person I am today.  I am especially grateful for those who came before me and have come up beside me along my journey. And I am grateful for those in my family who have done so as well, for they have helped to directly make a way for me to be where I am today.

And as for where I’m going… I can say with total and complete honesty, I’ve never been happier and healthier - and this amazing adventure of my life just keeps getting better and better.  I cannot wait to discover what the next 45 years bring. Thanks to each of you for being a part of it.

Here’s to making it great!